For Riyan

For Raisya

Can you believe it? It has been about two weeks since I last logged on the NET. I was so busy with dance, with the Batam trip and all. I'm still feeling tired from all the chaos coz I haven get my deserved rest. Ever since I came back from Batam, I have not stayed at home to rest for a single day, coz there were so many errands to run, many people to meet and etc.

To the extent that I forgot about our girls outing yesterday. Im extremely regretful about me forgetting about the outing. I just hope they would forgive me? I dunno. I've been M.I.A-ing for so long. Its inevitable if they're pissed of at me.

Okay, i knew my results already. Ok la. not my desired results but i guess its a good start for a freshman? yeah. so on to semester 2 people.

Anyway, the pics from Batam are out on facebook. too lazy to upload here. so if anyone wants to see. go to my fb page. got unglam pic sia, but nvm.

I'M SO PSYCHED FOR BATAM TRIP WITH THE TTNP LADIES!

This is disturbing.

I just watched tons of videos regarding celebrities who worship the devil and it freaked me out. Probably more so because most of them are about jay-z and beyonce. Many of you would recall how beyonce and jay-z always do that pyramid hand sign, and that's a symbol of the Illuminati. and there were so many reversed versions of Beyonce's and Jay-z's songs and videos that have satanic messages or symbols. Just coincidence?

And! The umbrella song by rihanna is actuallly saying NO GOD in hebrew and arabic.

There's just so many of such videos on youtube.

I dont know if they are just making them up, or they are haters of the entertainment industry, but there are so many evidences (though im not sure if they are flawed) that eventually changed my perception on everything.

And there are so many works on the ILLUMINATI that showcase how it greatly controls Hollywood, the government and Media.

What has the world become today?

And put this in mind, JAY-Z is the king of rap and Beyonce is the Queen of R&B. Dont you think their union is questionable? The video on crazy in love really made me thought hard about this.

And think about this, the songs we sing to with much enthusiasm in clubs or anywhere, they have satanic messages in them. Does that make us satan worshippers as well?

Go and watch "Beyonce, Sasha Fierce and Demon Possesion" on youtube, where it shows that the birth of Sasha Fierce (spiritually) is depicted in the Crazy in Love video. I dont know if I should believe it but it does affect how I feel about Beyonce now. I've been her avid fan since Destiny's Child days and it freaks me, saddens me and all that to know that my idol is such.

Its just that I'm FREAKED out by all those subliminal messages in her songs. To think that they have been my anthem for years. And I saw a video about how subliminal messages, over time, will drastically influence your mind and the decisions you make. Like they made a survey on those who listened to "Another one bites the dust" which has a message, when reversed, " I want to smoke marijuana" and those surveyed on did feel a NEED to get high.

I'm having shivers down my spine just thinking about it.

REBEL-ing.

Gonna party hard tmr night. Coz i deserve it. I goddamn deserve it after all the heartbreaks, the mental torture and the angsty tantrums. ( But minus the booze please. One extremely drunken night was all i need to learn a lesson)

Jungle-boy and I are gonna rock it out under the glittering disco ball, not giving shit about the world, leaving behind all worldly problems.

Wish me luck.


And to a bestfriend of mine who has lost a great figure in her life. Girl, be strong.. He is in a better place among all those loved by ALLAH. I love you.

I read somewhere that missing someone is not about not meeting that person since the last time u saw him but its when u do something and wishing that person is right there with u.

Well, then I dont know if what im feeling now is a feeling of missing someone or its just midnight blues. I met him like a few hours ago, hence this feeling is not about missing him. But, i'm wishing he is right here with me, but for no apparent reason, coz i'm not doing anything. So, does that count as missing him???


Heck, I dont care what the definition states. I MISS RASYAD. for no apparent reaon. I just all of a sudden have that longing feeling for him. Which makes me tear up. FOR NO APPARENT REASON. I swear this is the work of PMS. Damn it, I miss him.

Today was excruciatingly tiresome. Why? because i had chingay prac from 8 to 11 am and then rushed home to freshen up and had another malay dance training from 1 to 4pm. Then rushed to yishun to meet Rasyad and family. Had fun with them :) Funny people. made me laugh.. haha.

Well the underlying reason for why I am so tired is not due to long hours of training but because I had the ultimate workout yesterday. Rasyad and I decided to have a SMALL-MINI ( credits to Cik sue. HAHA!) picnic. But when we came, it started to pour. So we decided to find those pondok-like shelters to have our picnic instead. But the goddamn place was fucking full. No empty shelters for us. So in our quest to find a shelter, we walked all the way, from MacD's to Bedok Jetty! And still bloody hell no shelter. Was fucked-piss sia. Both of us. And guess what, we ended up picnicing at a void deck in TAMPINES. NEAR MY PLACE. HOW LAME IS THAT???!!! But we still had fun nevertheless :D But come to think of it, our luck is really suay to the max. coz of the three times we wanted gto have our escapade at ECP, those three times it POURED. Maybe god dunwan us to picnic. haha.

I realised i'm always the butt of the jokes during tarian. But I'm totally fine with it. Maybe because i upgrade from manual to auto la. then can catch the joke faster. so more interesting to be butt of the jokes. HAHAHA!

Well, today was interesting. For most part. I did alot of waking up, eating, reading, sleeping, waking up, eating and sleeping in the early part of the day. Then, Rasyad came over in the evening and we watched online movies together. It feels good that my family and him are getting along more by the day. Though the evening spent with him was short as he had to book in, it was one of those treasured moments that we take for granted at times. I mean, usually we focus on remembering and treasuring those dates where we go out for fancy dinner, do extravagant stuff and all that. But now i realised that its those seemingly insignificant meet-ups that add more colour and meaning to our relationship.

ZOMG!

Sorry for the Bombardment of shiok-sendiri pictures, but i gotta release the cam-whore in me!

Had to pose with the blingbling!

Rasyad surprised me with a white box with silver ribbon. Its content was two rings snugly placed in a ring cushion. ZOMG! It was the most unconventional, romantic proposal. We were about to eat, when he pulled out the box and revealed the contents. Then he asked for my hand and slid the ring onto my finger. It fits perfectly :). I totally couldn't eat after that and ended up playing with my food. hahaha! He has the guy version, and he looks absolutely adorable with it. The sad thing is i didnt have my camera with me, so I couldn't take a pic of our rings.

After that, we went to our FAVOURITE SPOT IN THE WORLD, and just laze around till 8pm. Had dinner and both of us headed home. But all the time i was super ecstatic with my 6 month-sary present. It's the best. Really. For those who cant see, small diamonds go all around. But on the left side of the ring, the diamonds are aligned on the bottom half, while on the right, the diamonds are aligned on the top half. I know the description sounds weird but try to visualise ok?

No one has given me a ring. And I'm glad he is the first.

GUESS WHO'S BACK IN TOWN!

Jungle-Boy's back home safe and sound in one piece ( alhamdullilah!) Every part of him his functioning well. No damage done. HAHAHA! Really glad he's home.. and i had so much fun berkepit bawah ketiak dier this morning when i fetch him from airport! HAHA.

This is bad. I am supposed to be concentrating on revising my Government and Politics of Singapore as i have a freaking exam tomorrow, which comprises of freaking 60% of my total grade for this module, but everytime i read a sentence in tghe goddamn textbook my mind drifts to Jungle-boy and the fact that I'm able to hug and kiss him tmr. This is bad. This is bad.

Celebration!

False alarm. Jungle boy coming back on 29, Sunday 345am. Bummer.

THREE reasons why this Saturday would be awesome.

1) It's the end of my F-uck-INALS.

2) Rasyad arrives in Singapore at 7am

3) Like MY JUNGLE BOY is back LAAAAAR!!!! like cannot believe it laaaar!!! like i cant wait LAAAAAR!

MORNING SURPRISE!

The previous post sprung out of no where. Really. I didnt post it. had a huge surprise when i logged in blogger. My jungle boy "hacked" into my blog and posted that for me... It was really a nice surprise :) I teared up reading the post. My boyfie is so unpredictable. His little surprises never fail to lift me up :)

And adik read his post and went like " alah, ni confirm kakak buat sendiri then step rasyad post". Bastard kau adik. Bitch. haha.

From Rasyad to Safirah :)

If I could have just one wish, I would wish to wake up everyday to the sound of your breath on my neck, the warmth of your lips on my cheek, the touch of your fingers on my skin, and the feel of your heart beating with mine, & nowing that I could never find that feeling with anyone other than you. A gentle word like a spark of light, illuminates my soul and as each sound goes deeper, It's you that makes me whole There is no corner, no dark place, your LOVE cannot fill and if the world starts causing waves, it's your devotion that makes them still and yes you always speak to me, in sweet honesty and truth your caring heart keeps out the rain, LOVE, the ultimate roof so thank you my Love for being there, for supporting me, my life i'll do the same for you, My Everything <3

Yours Truthfully Rasyad (Jungle Boy)
Try to merge the bold italic letters by order.

HAPPY 6 MONTH-SARY BABY!

wow. I cant believe that it has been half a year, and alhamdullillah everything has been smooth-sailing (despite some minor, minor issues. but we still made-up fast :]). Good job Safirah and Rasyad! Keep up the good work! *pats back* hahaha. but the sad thing is he is in australia, so we cant really have our monthly celebration. boo-hoo. but never mind.. 7 more days baybeh!

the boy is so sweet though. he predicted that he would be busy and would have no access to internet today, so he gave me an advance wish. so thoughtful, i almost teared up in the train.. Love every bit, every molecule, every atom, every neutron and every electron of him. HAHA!


TO RASYAD :
i will be having chingay training from 8am to 11am at GONGSHANG PRIMARY. then break from 11am to 1pm. then 1pm to 3pm is malay dance training at TAMPINES WEST CC. so during these timings, i am not with lappie. so if u happen to have access to internet during these times, im sorry baby i cant chat with u. but I'll be home after 3pm. Alright love, so take note of this. mwwwuah.



Cant wait for u to get back. there's so many things we have to do. Like watch RADIT AND JANI and cry bucket-loads of tears together. and maybe go for a picnic.. okay okay??

I love u jungle-boy, and happy 6 months. Im so proud of US.


Oh! had truck-loads of fun with AIN, AZHAR,SHAI, FINA and DAYAH. They really help me release all the pent-up stress due to revision. thanks girls and guy! And thanks ain for the treat! aku sayang kau many many! pics will be uploaded soon. just have to wait for PALAT (fina), Shai (SLR CHICK) and Ain (my moley baby) to upload them.

I need a break.

Going out with my girls tonight.

Fuck SOCIOLOGY, fuck SS, fuck CNM.

Feeling so high, lets kiss the sky

With you is where I'd rather be, but we're stuck where we are.
It's so hard, you're so far..
This long distance is killing me.
I wish that you are here with me, but we're stuck where we are
It's so hard, you're so far..
This long distance is killing me.

PARANOID. PARANOID. PARANOID.

JANI: I love you, bodoh.


RADIT: I love you too, bodoh.

I love them (:

Who the hell is Juliana Joy and why the hell didnt u tell me? Till I have to find it out myself. Its obvious you have read the emails.

When it comes to me, I have to tell you everything. But you.... Maybe you forgot. But still, im very disappointed.

My eyes are swollen, thanks to "Radit & Jani"

Baby, you have to watch that movie.

My Dream Wedding

Perfect wedding dress. It's lace and satin, with sleeves. Just perfect. And the chocolate wedding cake. Scrumptious. And the diamond ring has diamonds around the band... The ultimate perfect cut.

Cepat pulang sayang
Cepat kembali, jangan pergi lagi.....

TELL ME THIS IS A SIGN

1) Just took the quiz Who's Your Celeb Twin? and got the result: Your twin is Beyonce Knowles!!!
Your Twin is Beyonce Knowles!!!! You are sexy fun and classy. When it comes to popularity you are the gal. You have many talents and when it comes to dancing no one can beat you. You have guys lined up around the block and you know it. Your personality is head over heels. Just watch out you might make people fall crazy in love.



2)Safirah took the quiz - Who Are Your Celebrity Sisters? and the result is Your Celebrity Sisters Are Beyonce and Solange
"Talented, sexy, and sassy. You've got a star quality that everyone notices"


These are just two facebook quizzes that i took recently. There were tons others before and all the results were, yes you guessed it BEYONCE!!! I know i should not take fb quizzes seriously, but all the results show this. So could it be a sign?



I hope so. I mean, for a start, I have a huge ass. So, i'm a step closer right?


Dream on bitch.

How i wish I hadn't gone to the toilet and logged of from e-buddy. I wouldn't have wasted that precious 20 minutes.

If you are Aries: (Safirah)

You are very romantic. You do not hold back your feelings and are very expressive in love and romance. You are very charming and amiable. In any social gathering, the opposite sex is attracted towards you. The opposite sex likes you because of your good looks and sociable nature. Since you attract so much attention from the opposite sex, your steady partner may feel jealous and possessive about you. But you are faithful to your partner. You are a very spontaneous lover. Your partner loves your little ideas of love and romance. You are a dynamic lover and wear the pants in your relationships.

Your kissing style: You are a fantastic kisser. Your kisses are unforgettable.

(note the bold yellow words baby.)


If you are Libra: (Rasyad)

You are fantastic and a very sexy lover. You love mush and romance in your relationships. You like to flirt even when you are committed but most of it is harmless fun. You tend to trust anyone very fast. So be careful because you fall in love too fast. You love peaceful dinners and relaxed evening walks with your partner. You are an extremely passionate lover and the opposite sex adores you for that. You express your love whenever and wherever you can. You take great care of your sweetheart and shower all your attention on your sweetheart.

Your kissing style: Your kisses are wild and amazing.

To attract you, the opposite sex must be: Stylish, sophisticated, attentive, mysterious, etc.

You are more compatible with - Aries, Aquarius, Gemini
You are less compatible with - Scorpio, Virgo, Capricorn

* YOU BETTER DONT I WARN U!
*I agree with this ;)
* Goddamn yes.
* Yeah, i am all that. (tak tau malu!)

Sayang, if u can get the chance, please call your mom. She's down with fever and cough. She called me just now asking if you called. I said no, only the first day..

p/s: i miss you.

Sayang, i know you're on a training mission for the next four days and wont be able to go back to base camp and use the internet, but please i hope you'll read this when u get the chance.

Memang betul i told u that i tak jadi gi skola hari ni bab hujan. Its true that memang hujan. and another motivation for me to skip school was that I thought we could chat longer on Facebook, thats why i decided not to go since I dont really get much opportunity to stay connected to u. But it turned out that u had to go so soon, and the rain also stopped. and since i was already dressed for school, I straightaway rushed out. I thought since i could make it, why not just go for the lecture as it was my last socio lect before the exams, so the profs would definitely give hints or tips for the exams. And i reached just in time, with 5 min to spare.

I know u sounded as though u dont believe, but its true syg. I wouldnt dare to lie to u. I really hop u tak fikir bukan2. Im so worried here. I want to clear the air but there's no way I could do that. I cant even call u. Well, i tried smsing ur friend. I didnt know if the msg got true.

This feeling of worry is killing me. I just dunt want u to think that I have something to hide. I dont.

If I have all the money in the world right now, the FCUK watch and the CHANEL 2.55 are what i will get straightaway. I swear.

Foreign/Anonymous numbers are my new bestfriends

Yes. Coz every foreign/anonymous/private number displayed on my caller ID brings possibilities that Rasyad is on the other line. This has led to my current OCD behaviour of making sure that my phone is a finger away from me. Hence, ensuring that if he calls, I'm ready to pick up. His calls are like rare rubies. So are his smses. Got one from him this morning. He was telling me he misses me and stuff like that. and the infamous line "Takmo Naughty2 k syg". Haha. He told me he has been experiencing recurring dreams of me being with another guy.My boyfriend is so cute when he is paranoid. I would NEVER dream of cheating on him. What we have is too precious.

Anyway, Ubin was so fun! Me and Cik Su were in-charge of the Kampong House tour and demonstration of a MALAY TRADITIONAL WEDDING. The primary school kids are surprisingly quite scandalous. Though they were a tough bunch, I still had loads of laughter and amusement.

French Quiz was okay. But am sure will NOT get full marks.

SURPRISE!

Got two surprise calls from my lover-boy. I'm glad he is coping well there. Only that he said the weather's pretty cold. AND both times, he reminded me to behave and not be naughty. HEHEH. am I such a naughty girl for him to be so paranoid? *gives that preten-to-be-innocent look* It felt extremely good to hear his voice.

I wonder what time is it now in Queensland..

POPPYE'S rocks my socks! Eh wait, I mean tastebuds.

Had dinner at Poppyes (is that how you spell it?) with AIDA, PHAT and YANI. Sedap to the max please. Especially the fork-licking good mashed potatoes! YUMYUM.

We talked and chatted and gossiped. Like goddamn alot to a point we can publish a book. haha! But so much fun. I love them. And i laughed so much till i grew abs. GREW eh. SYABAS safirah. Then at the eleventh hour, when we were supposed to leave, we opened a new topic about going on an outing/vacation with the tarian girls. And we talked some more at the traffic junction mcm tempat to rumah kiter. Was telling aida we should have brought our pillows and comforters and just camp at the traffic junction. haha. I'm so loving the plan *squeels* ok since when i squeeel? ergh. But cannot say now, coz haven confirm yet exactly. But I seriously hope the plan menjadi please. Super eggcited!

But eggcited satu hal. How am i spose to convince Rasyad to let me go on this short, short "excursion"? haha. Dier pantang lau bab2 stay out late and over-nighting and stuff like that. Aiseyman.

And speaking of which, I just realised that 99% of my posts are either about him, referring to him or has a mention of him, even for a single sentence. Shit. I dont wanna be like those fanatic girls who all they blog about are their BFs. But cannot help it, so what to do. I AM one of them. Kes siow ah. K lets stop this minah talk. hahahah!

If i CAN go ZoukOut this year, I'm gonna wear these! Or something like these. Coz the swimsuit is a goddamn $300++.

My jungle-boy has left the country. Surprisingly, i didnt shed a single tear. Maybe it has not hit me yet. But im missing him already.

ONE MORE DAY

My jungle-boy is flying off in less than 24 hours. !!!!! I wonder if i could function with him not around. I mean, whenever he goes to the jungle for detail or standby or whatever shit the army does, I always get this down feeling. I dont know how to describe it but its like everything seems so draggy and dreadful. its an equivalent to living in a grey world. Cliche, yes I know. But that's how it is. When you're in love, you see life in pink. JE VOIS LA VIE EN ROSE. haha.

And this always make me think back.. I was such an independant girl before. Even when I was in my past relationships. I didnt need, desire, want, yearn for my then-boyfriends as much as i do for Rasyad. i need him 24/7. Which is bad. Coz i wasnt like this. I lived my life the way i wanted to, and basically, had that heck-care attitude towards my then-boyfriends. But with Rasyad, its a totally different story. Its going to be our 6 months together, and he still cause me to have butterflies in my stomach. and i always get this tingling feeling in me whenever he holds me close. In my past relationships, usually by the 4th month I would be bored as hell. See, I dont understand.

That's why I feel its bad, in a good way. We cant have too much candy for lunch. It will spoil our appetite for dinner.

Current Obssession- Cut-out swimsuits

I would love the last one, in brown with gold trimmings (:

ZOUKOUT, here i come!

5 more days.. Safirah, you have to stay strong.

DON'T BE A CRYBABY.

Rasyad's birthday outing was such a blast! We had so much fun laughing, hugging, eating, kissing and walking!had school in the earlier part of the day so with my masai face, i trotted to Dhoby Ghaut to meet sweetheart. The day kicked off with a srumptious meal at Aston's at The Cathy. Both of us ordered cream of mushroom soup and the double up chicken. Yummylicious ;) Didnt have room for dessert. That's how kenyang we were. Next we went to PS to catch Darah. Ok la. Darah was gore and gruesome, but at some parts, its super ridiculous. And a certain part is so tak perlu. I mean, what's the purpose of showing a horny fat bastard licking the face and lips of a sweaty girl? Like eeew. After the movie, we took a long bus ride on 65 back to tampines. took a gezillion pics on the bus but i feel these are the only ones suitable to be uploaded and shared with the world. hhehhehe.

Im glad boyfriend adores my presents : Pillow with my lip-prints and brownie-cookies.. Watching him hug my pillow makes me go all gooeey in side :)

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY JUNGLE-BOY!

My jungle-boy is 20 today! hahah. so old already. cannot act childish okay. Must be more responsible, mature and wiser. Meaning no more partying and booze!

Unfortunately, I have school til freaking 8pm today so, i cant celebrate his birthday with him today. So we made plans to celebrate tmr.. I so cant wait for tmr to come. I miss him like crazy. Its been like about a week since i last met him, so tmr would be super-duper fun! I dont care what ppl would say but im gonna be extra manja with him. HAH!

Supposed to borrow digi cam frm my cousin but jengjengjeng, i opened up the camera and realised she forgot to put her batt in. AND she didnt give me her cable and charger. Hoping angel could lend me hers :)

Okay, tuesday, please move faster. Let wednesday take its place!

Musiq Soulchild- Don't Change

Lately you've been questioning
If I still see you the same way
Cause through these trying years
We gonna both physically change
Now, don't you know you'll always be the most beautiful woman I know
So let me reassure you darling that
My feelings are truly unconditional

See I'll love you when your hair turns gray, girl
I'll still want you if you gain a little weight, yeah
The way I feel for you will always be the same
Just as long as your love don't change
No
I was meant for you and you were meant for me, yeah
And I'll make sure that I'll be everything you need, yeah
Girl the way we are is how it's gonna be
Just as long as your love don't change

Cause I'm not impressed
More or less by them girls on the TV and magazines
Cause honestly I believe
That your beauty is way more than skin deep
Cause everything about you makes me feel I have the greatest gift in the world
And even when you get on my last nerve
I couldn't see myself being with another girl

I'll love you when your hair turns gray, yeah
I'll still want you if you gain a little weight, yeah
The way I feel for you will always be the same
Just as long as your love don't change
I was meant for you and you were meant for me, yeah
And I'll make sure that I'll be everything you need, yeah
Girl the way we are is how it's gonna be
Just as long as your love don't change

So don't waste your time
Worrying about small things that
Ain't relevant to me
Cause
To my
Understanding
You're all I want and need
See what I'm trying to say is
I'm here to stay
And as long as your love doesn't change
Baby, baby darling I swear that I
I swear that I ain't going nowhere, no

See I'll love you when your hair turns gray, yeah
And I'll still want you if you gain a little weight, yeah
The way I feel for you will always be the same
Just as long as your love don't change
I was meant for you and you were meant for me, yeah
And I'll make sure that I'll be everything you need, yeah
Girl the way we are is how it's gonna be
Just as long as your love don't change

You're my baby
Don't you change baby
Baby you got understand that I love you baby
Don't you know, you got to know
You got to know


I cried, watching the music video. Sayang, will your feelings towards me stay the same 30 years from now, when i have wrinkles, gain more weight and my hair turns grey? Or if im bound to a wheelchair? Would your love still carry the same passion when u first laid eyes on me? Would it?

PHEW!

Okay, socio test wasnt that bad. I mean, its in essay form so its pretty open-ended, thus I may think Im answering the question, but maybe, I'm not. Get it?

The question was " If humans are a product of culture, how is cultural change possible?" At first I thought I didnt know the answers to this, coz i was so dead set on doing the family qn (which goes something like "The family roles are becoming egalitarian. How so? How do you account for this?" or something like that) as i felt that im BORN to do qns on FAMILY. But the sad thing is that I didnt know what egalitarian meant (i had a hunched it meant equal. and guess what? IT DOES MEAN EQUAL. damn) so I just tried to think of how to answer the culture question. And surprisingly, the whole essay turned out fine. Yaaaaay to me. Just hope I do well for this. Coz I didnt do well for Communications and new media. Blame myself for slacking and not revising earlier. Oh wells, Im not interested in majoring in it anyway.. So angel, if you are reading this, please dont ask me my marks coz i totally screwed cnm.

Okay, next up: French test 2 and the dreaded 8 page Singapore Studies essay!!!!! so looking forward to it! (SO NOT!)


P/s: I miss my jungle-boy. now he is on stand-by and he can only return to civilisation next tues. Goddamn it.

Socio test is in about 3 and a half hours and here i am blogging. Well, I spotted two topics, Culture and Family and decided (quite dangerously) to bank on this two topics. Please please keluar on these two topics. Kalau tak aku mampos mcm kerbau. I too decided to screw the readings, lagi mampos. But i see no point rushing thru the readings and not get anything in my goddamn pretty head. Im gonna follow prof ern ser's words and focus on answering the qns.

Okayn good luck safirah! Time to mandi and be wangi-wangi for the test!

Oh, and must not forget foolscap paper!

Confessions of an undecided soul

OMG. French orals are like in, two days, and I havent been practising. I'm lagging behind by 5 lecture webcasts, 350,789 readings and 285 tutorials. Something like that. Next week, I have Socio test, and the week after French test. Goddamn it and im still clubbing this sat. suicidal. But not guilty. Why? Because i think i deserve to club. I've been UN-CLUBBED for 5 months. Though i just went last wed, it still felt... unsatisfying. Anyway, it will be my first time clubbing with THE BOY and his bunk mates this sat so its gonna be a whole new experience. I mean, all this while I've only clubbed with my girls, and he, with his boys. So, he've never seen the wilder, party-animal side of me. Hence, the nervous, anxietal feeling that's brewing. Coz i dunwan things to change after this. Not saying I act alim in front of him (totally never) but it's just this WHAT-IFs that have been a naggy fuck at the back of my head.

But nevertheless, I'm freaking excited for this Sat coz i do wanna party with boyfie. Get high and almighty under the disco ball. HAHA. and he says he wanna seduce me with his moves. We'll see about that MR DANCER. Yeah, he's a hip-hop dancer and stuff but it takes a lot to seduce me. In this manner la, in other aspects I cant really say. HAH!

I guess the real reason why I cant wait for this Sat is bcoz i miss that jungle-boy. Yeah la, everytime go jungle. macam spore nye jungle full of threats.

lost ONE HALF of my clubbing fake eyelash. Now, tell me.. HOW AM I SPOSE TO FREAKING CLUB WITHOUT MY CLUBBING FAKE EYELASH??!!

Girls Night Out!

Met Shai & Dayah after school. Went to Holland V, then to clifford pier, then to Marina square. I swear, from tonight onwards, WE HATE F1. super toublesome la! all the roads closed and all. assholic!Missed them like crazy. We had so much fun together. We ate, talked and laughed tilll our stomachs felt like bursting. I swear. We never fail to laugh till we tear up whenever we hang out. That's why I love them.

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super fun day. me, bf and sister went to QUENSTOWN, coz sister wanted to buy this maxi dress. Nice, me like and me will "borrow" soon. hahaha.

After that, sister went to pasir ris to meet her bf while BF and me went our own way. Sensational exploration. That's all i can say :)