We went to 15 minutes today for dinner. It's located at LaSalle, awesome place with awesome food. They also have live music, but the set started at 830pm, which was too late. So, we went to Golden Village at Plaza Singapura to watch IN TIME. AWESOME MOVIE, i tell you. It's so full of sociological insights and throughout the movie I actually made references and recalled sociological theories! Can you imagine my nerd-ness??

So it was an awesome night, with awesome food and awesome entertainment, spent with the most awesome boyfriend ever :)

The night made me realised that certain things he said were true. About how I have not been showing him the affection, how I'm not as manja to him and how I'm always picking fights/pissed off/grumpy etc. I feel extremely shit for treating him like that this past few weeks. He has beem sp undertanding and tolerant while I'm just being an ass pushing the limits all the time. But I've told myself that I should really get rid of all those negativity in me.

We shall always have happy dates from now on :)

I'm doing marketing lecture and I find myself crying. And I'm in school.

You definitely spoilt my day.

Sometimes, being alone feels more liberating than having someone's company. You don't have to try to please that person and you can focus on yourself, doing things you enjoy.

But it completely sucks when you need the company of someone, but no one's there.

Who says those in relationships never get lonely?

During times like this, with deadlines kissing each other in the asses, I really miss bf. I miss the times when he used to just sit beside me, with his psp etc while I study.

I rmb the times when he used to surprise me at school, showing up out of the blue and making my day :)

And I can never forget the times when he came down all the way from the other end of the world to give me support whenever I have my performances. His encouragement and support drives me to continue my passion.

He is really the pillar of my strength (besides my mother). As pathetic as I sound, I really feel that without him, I wont have the drive to continue with anything in my life. He makes me look forward to every single day even though I know how fucked up life could be at times.

To me, he is just amazing.

Why I'm no longer vain?

Yeah, it could be due to my overwhelming workload this year.

It could also be because of you.

You used to make me feel like I'm the most beautiful girl in the world, even if I'm in a plain old tank top and jeans.

Now, not anymore.

I don't feel it coming from you.

That's why I don't bother anymore to be vain.

Come on, let's face it. I have gained alot of weight. I know that. That kinda affects me, like I hate looking into the mirror or looking at my pictures. And even though you deny it, I still think you are affected by it.

Ok, maybe you are concern to as why I have not been cheerful since the start of this year.

But why mention I'm not vain? Why not say I'm not as cheerful as before? Is it because I'm not vain = I don't look good = you are affected by it?

Are you embarrassed by how I look now?

Be clearer please.

Is there a minimum level for being pretty? I mean, have you ever heard anyone say "well that girl could be pretty if (fill in the blanks)" So, she has to (fill in the blanks)before she can hit the level of pretty-ness? What's wrong with her not (fill in the blanks)?

By the way, I envy those big and fabulous girls who look good and feel good in their own skin. I feel like I'm in between, like I'm too fat to be average size but too little to be plus-sized. So to which group do I belong? Nevertheless, I try to embrace myself for who I am, but still...