So, how do you regain someone's trust?

You can't. Once it's lost, it's lost.
You can still love someone as deeply as ever, but to fully trust him/her again would take a long time.

Maybe, never.

Sugar Rush. I know this series have been aired liked donkey years ago, but I absolutely love it. It makes me realise that it doesn't matter whether you're straight or gay to be hurt by love. I mean I've heard many stories by both guys and girls of how they turn gay as they were hurt by members of the opposite sex. But turning gay doesn't mean you wont get hurt ever. I have a friend who had a lesbian partner who cheated on her. So, whoever says gay relationships happen because women/men wont betray their lesbian/gay partners because they understand each other is utter rubbish. When it comes to love and relationships, you WILL get hurt. One way or another, minor or major heartbreaks.

Cheating, lying, betrayal, unfaithfulness... They don't gender discriminate.

I am currently hooked on Sonny with a Chance (thanks elsa), Dance Academy and Sugar Rush. Been watching the episodes back to back since 12pm. Its the best way to spend a cold, lonely Friday. Cheetos, ice cream and Youtube :) Yeah, I know, I'm a geek. Okay, Dance Academy is about to finish loading. Ima get back to my happy ritual :)))

I don't know why I've been so obssessed with interior design. Especially for bedrooms. I guess it stemmed from the outing to IKEA I had with Rasyad. Well, we were supposed to go swimming, but the swimming complex was closed. The day started raining and there was nothing else to do but to stay indoors. We were so bored of window-shopping so Rasyad thought of going to Ikea. We ended up 'planning' for our very own house. I swear it was one of the funnest date we ever had. Hence, my obsession for interior design was born.

While waiting for Sonny with a Chance to load on youtube, I CHANCED upon (get the joke.hehe) some pretty stuff.

Okay, the last one is not really related but the picture is sooooo adorabbbbbllllee. If you don't know, starting from the far left, it's Snow White, Sleeping Beauty, Princess Jasmine, Cinderella, Belle, and Ariel. I don't know why. I'm just feeling extra girly-kiddy today :))))

WOW.

I was watching this indon movie when I remembered this incident of mine.

It happened on the night the girls, me and Rasyad went to Arab Street for dinner and leak session.

We took a cab home, and as I live in Tampines, I was the last one off.

Well, I was wearing this baggy cropped top, which slips up when I bend down or strecth. It so happen that while i was getting off the cab, my top slipped up alot due to the strong wind. And thanks to my luck, right behind the cab was this car full of MATS who were apparently dropping off one of their members. So when my top slipped up, the whole carfuk of mats so and they started laughing and whistling as though I was an act from the Cirque du Soleil. They literally went like this

I was freaking pissed at being made a spectacle that I felt like maiming them like this

I was so hoping that their car would crash and burn in front of me, but when they drove off, with satisfied smiles like children who just finished a whole bag of cheetos, all i could do was

‎22. I think you're one of those rare girls who is really good in a lot of things. You're smart, beautiful and have dancing as a talent! I love your eyes, skin-bare or in thick heavy make-up. ♥


aww elsaaa...

Gorgeous right? Baby, shall we?

I am a happy girl because:

1) I did well for my exams :))))

2) Today is my 19 monthsary = 1 YEAR 7 MONTHS :)))))

happyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappy

"Be careful if u make a woman cry, because Allah counts her tears.. A woman came out of a man`s rib.Not from his feet to be walked on, not from his head to be superior over, but from his side to be equal. Under the arm to be protected.. & next to the heart to be loved."

(via royalpains)

FUCK YOU.

My Sunday was terrifical. I started the day with Rasyad. We roam around Bugis Street for lunch at KFC and then to find my bangles. And did I mention I vomitted in a handicapped toilet at Bugis Junction? It was the most horrendous feeling ever. I was having this senak-feeling in my tummy, like when you're filled with angin and stuff. After lunch, the feeling got worst and I felt like vomitting, but cant. You know, that feeling? When I could not take it anymore, Rasyad bought me a can of 100 plus, saying it's his mother's remedy for senak perut. So, I drank and about ten minutes later, I was puking my guts out. But after that I felt so much better:)

For dinner, we met up with HIDAYAH, SHAIKHA, KAK NOR and her bf. Went to the food place opposite Kampung Glam Cafe. Hidayah was literally 'kelubur' and she was done with her plate 5 mins after they commenced the meal. I swear that girl's a monster. After dinner, Kak Nor and her bf went off and we headed for Sufi for lepak session. We were laughing so hard we cried.


Rasyad: Mata anjing kat tepi ke kat depan?

Yes, that was one of the topics we talked about. The eye position of various animals. Funny shit i tell you!

I enjoyed myself thoroughly. Love my girls and the boy so much :)

Sometimes i love you
More than you'll ever know
Other times you get on my nerves
That's just reality
No, it can't always be kisses, hugs, and beautiful words
You was looking for your prince, what you found
Is a pauper with potential
And no, i'm nowhere near perfect
But i'm around
Girl, time and patience is essential

This can only be as good as we both make it
Guess sometimes its gonna hurt
We can be as happy as we want to be, girl
But we gotta make it work

-Ne-Yo, Make it work

RELEVANT.

ALMOST got hit by the train doors. ALMOST.

All because I was rushing to meet YouKnowWho.

I'M SORRY SYG.

I just deleted the few posts.

I didnt mean to hurt you. I just thought I could use this blog as a medium to communicate to you how I feel about certain things. Things that i could not express. Why? Because I was egoistic, temperemental,attention-seeking, selfish, drama-queen.

Little did I know that by posting all those things hurt you badly. I didnt for a second imagine how you would feel. Instead, I was too damn selfish to think about myself, wanting you to see that I'm right in all those issues.

But now, i realise that what makes a relationship work, and I mean, REALLY WORK, is open and honest communication. I've learnt that whatever bothers me, I should just discuss it with you, no point writing it here as nothing would be solved.

Hidayah advised me that I shouldnt have posted all that as im "airing my dirty laundry to people". And she is right.

So, people, please do not think Rasyad is an ass. He really isn't. I'm the ass. He has been nothing but perfect to me, but I was too blinded by my personal drama to see that. My paranoia, my self-doubts and insecurities unfairly potrayed him as a jerk here. But he is not. Absolutely not.

I really love him so much. Despite me being uber mean to him, he still stood by me. He really understands why I do such things, and he doesnt judge me. Gosh, I'm such a mofo for not appreciating him enough, for misunderstanding him..

DM & WL for life :)

With you, it's possible.

"A year. A thousand kisses. And now a thousand one, a thousand two. There are so many other place we could have ended up, but I have to believe none of them would have felt this right. “All I want is you” is not entirely true. I want so much more, and with you I think I can get it."


— The Realm of Possibility by David Levithan

SHOUTOUT TO MY HOMEGIRL, ANGEL

I am really, absolutely grateful to have you as my breastie.

Your text made me feel at ease, knowing that I have someone to lean on when it gets too tough for me to cope. When my little heart get torn to pieces, I know you would be the one to put them back together as if it is brand new.

I love you baby girl. So much.