My jungle-boy is flying off in less than 24 hours. !!!!! I wonder if i could function with him not around. I mean, whenever he goes to the jungle for detail or standby or whatever shit the army does, I always get this down feeling. I dont know how to describe it but its like everything seems so draggy and dreadful. its an equivalent to living in a grey world. Cliche, yes I know. But that's how it is. When you're in love, you see life in pink. JE VOIS LA VIE EN ROSE. haha.
And this always make me think back.. I was such an independant girl before. Even when I was in my past relationships. I didnt need, desire, want, yearn for my then-boyfriends as much as i do for Rasyad. i need him 24/7. Which is bad. Coz i wasnt like this. I lived my life the way i wanted to, and basically, had that heck-care attitude towards my then-boyfriends. But with Rasyad, its a totally different story. Its going to be our 6 months together, and he still cause me to have butterflies in my stomach. and i always get this tingling feeling in me whenever he holds me close. In my past relationships, usually by the 4th month I would be bored as hell. See, I dont understand.
That's why I feel its bad, in a good way. We cant have too much candy for lunch. It will spoil our appetite for dinner.
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