I left you for Jakarta and Batam. But these trips don't pose any threats. I went with my dance teacher, and it's us girls, with a bunch of older people. Hence clearly, there would be no clubbing/drinking/boys/mischief.
On the other hand, your trip.. I don't even know where to start. Entertainment-wise, its so cheap there. And the people you go with, they drink/club etc. Okay, maybe since its family, you may not go to these places. But I would never know right. Anything can happen.
So, I dont think I'm wrong to be paranoid, to hold on to you abit tighter. Try be in my shoes. I bet you'll freak out as well.
I don't know. If you do go, I'll be so damn pissed. I wont send you off. Heck, maybe I'll just shut off from you a week before you go.
If you come back and I'm not the same person you knew, don't blame me. Because I am ANGRY. Others can say whatever they want. I am so restrictive la, its family what.. Just say it. I dont care. Because you chose me to be part of your life, and with that I too can make decisions. I'm not asking you to choose between me or family, I'm just asking you to DO WHATEVER YOU CAN TO NOT GO. Yes, I'm selfish but you chose me, so deal with it.
(This is a paranoid and angsty post to relieve myself. Don't take it seriously)
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