You know how we tend to harp on someone's mistakes, despite the fact that they did much more nice things for us. It's as though when they did something wrong, that's the criteria we use to judge them, or predict that's how they gonna be for the rest of their lives when in fact, the good they did clearly outweighs it all.
I am guilty of that towards Rasyad at times. I've been reflecting on some things and I've actually decided to make a list of the goods and bads. I know, this is uncalled for and not supposed to be shared to the whole world but I want the whole world to know how great a boyfriend to me he actually is. Which I sometimes fail to appreciate.
GREAT THINGS RASYAD HAS DONE FOR ME:
1. He always plan surprises (though most of them failed. haha) because he knows how i adore surprises. He would show up on random days at school to surprise me. Once, I was sick and he showed up at my door unexpectedly. Totally made me feel better.
2. That time, he knew I was hungry and had no money to buy dinner, so he cooked for me maggie, packed it and I had my most love-filled dinner at the void deck.
3. No matter how tired he is after work, he would always be there when I need a shoulder to cry on, or someone to talk to. With puffy and bloodshot eyes, he would still give me his utmost attention.
4. He makes me feel like I'm the most beautiful girl in the world. Like I'm his priceless treasure, whom he protects with everything he's got so that no one could steal me away.
5. His sincere love, commitment and loyalty which he never fail to prove to me every single day.
6. Random things like kisses on the forehead, hugs right in the middle of a crowd, the look on his face when he stares at me like all he could see is me... Much much more. I cant even list them.
I'm not gonna put the other side of the list. But all I can disclose is that there's 2 things on that list. See how the good things outweighs the bad? But I always focus on the bad things that I totally ignore the fact that he has done so much for me. Everytime we have our arguments, or when my mind does the weird thing of re-living the bad incidents, all my energy is concentrated on those 2 incidents. No matter how he expressed his remorse a kezillion times and assurance that they are the first and the last times he's ever gonna do them, I keep bringing them up over and over again. I'm so caught up in wanting him to be perfect that I forgot he is only human, like me. And that I too have done/say things I shouldn't have.
Moral of the story is, always take a step back and reflect on all the good things that person has done to you before making any judgements. Be more forgiving as everybody makes mistakes. What matters most is that he/she learns from the mistakes and does not do it again.
Typing this out has made me realized that I should show more appreciation towards him. I should stop punishing him for that 2 wrongs he did (even though they are MAJOR to me) because they were only a one-time thing.
His love and commitment, on the other hand, never stop even for a second.
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